I have decided to move

I am not very technologically savvy.  So I have moved my blog to wordpress.com
 here's the new blog site...
fattofabulousoverforty.wordpress.com

Here we go again... what's my motivation?

Once again, I am faced with the fact that I have tried to lose weight and have failed.  I thought that maybe doing a blog would help me be accountable and would keep me motivated.  That would be a big fat "NO." 

So, why am I here again?  Because I realized that for me, all the weight loss books, articles, and such were wrong.  Doing it "Just for me" wasn't enough, I needed a better motivation, a real reason for doing this and I found it, in a huge way!

I have a precious daughter.  She was our gift from the Lord.   We were told that we would most likely never have children.  I have a malformed uterus, actually called a uterus didelphys.  If we did conceive, the doctor told us we would have many miscarriages and really only a 70% chance of carrying a baby to term.  The Lord was very gracious, we had our sweet V in May of 1999.  

Fast forward 12 years...I had been homeschooling V for 3 years at this time and we had hit a really rough patch.  With the combination of hormones from both of us, it was now pretty rough. At times there were more tears than lessons! I was ready to put her back in school and she was willing to go.  I went to her room to apologise for not being a kind mother/teacher and I found her writing a note.  She was listing all the things that she disliked about me, my character flaws.  The one that stuck out was... "My mom says she wants to lose weight, but she never does.  I'm afraid that she will die!" Ouch! I took the note and put it in my wallet with the intent to use it as motivation.  But just like a lot of stuff in my wallet, I forgot about it until a few weeks ago...

While organizing my bedroom, I found the note in a box. Ouch, again! It was just like in the movies when a person gets bad news, they slump onto the bed in disbelief.  I did just that. I sat down and started to cry, freshly reminded of the fact that I was not only hurting myself, but my family too.

So here's my motivation... I want to be healthy for my husband, so he and I can live a full life and doesn't have to raise our daughter alone. I want to be healthy for my daughter, so she has a mom that can keep up with her and will be here for her. I want to be healthy for me, so that I am not hindered by my weight.  I have many dreams, wishes and  Lord willing, I might just get to fulfill some of them!

Truth is in the Sauce

Ugh! Toggled away form this page and I lost everyting that I wrote! Of course I didn't save what I had written first...why would one do that?

Okay, last week I was up 2lbs, so I weighed 215.5. Well, like they say, the truth is in the sauce. Got on the scale this week, I lost 5 lbs! Yessiree people, I am down to 210.5. I am so stinken excited. I know that part of the weight lost was water weight due to "that time of the month," but I'm hopeful that some of it's due to making healthy choices. I've really tried to drink more water and curb the Coke drinking.

Have a super week and remember to make healthy choices!

Oh that time of the month!

Don't you just love the weight gain from that time of the month? Got on the scale this morning and I was up 2lbs! Ugh! More determination this week! What are some ways that you are able to keep off that extra weight gain during that time? Would love to hear from you all!

Btw, so very excited... I am now up to 2 reps of 15 situps each and 2 reps of 15 pushups each. Very excited! Now off to walk/run!

A new week

I am so glad to be back! Have had many encouraging emails and am so thankful for my sweet friends. Thanks bunches!

I did not want to post my weight last week. I was totally embarrassed! Here it is... I have gained a whopping 6 lbs since I started this blog. Yes, my friends I am up to 213.5. Whew! It's out there. I'm so glad to get that off my chest. Looking forward to Monday's weigh in next week. I'm positive that it's going to be a good one. :)

I'm really excited to say that I have a two family members that are joining on my quest for a healthier life. The three of us are in a little competition. Whoever loses the larges percentage of weight by April 1 will recieve a new outfit from the losers. I am so excited about this. My second oldest sister is the "weight keeper" she is keeping a record for us. We will not know how the others are doing until the three month mark. It's all a secret! So let the games begin!

Last night I started doing good ol' fashion push ups and sit ups. I was only able to do 10 sit ups at one time and 10 push ups at one time (2 reps). Not sure what happened tonight, but I was able to do 15 sit ups! I'm thrilled! Off to do another rep. Have a great evening, thanks for checking in!

If you fall off a horse, you get back up on the horse and try it again!

Well, that's what I've always been told and when I was riding, that's what I did when I fell off or was even thrown. Got right back on that horse and tried it again! When it comes to weight loss, why is it so hard? I am completely ashamed of myself that I did not pursue this with the vigor that I thought I would. Instead, I just gave up! Which in turn caused me to gain more weight.
Oh the vicious cycle!

So, I had to start asking myself some hard questions. What happened? Why did I stop? I looked deep inside and did not like what I saw. I saw a person that had become a slave to laziness and complacency. My family loves me just the way I am but they too desire for me to be a healthier wife and mother. However, that did not get me motivated. So many people say, "Well, you have to do it for yourself or you will never do it." How selfish can that be? Why does it come down to ME? Yes, I do want to be a healther person, but I want to be here for the long haul for my husband and for my daughter.

Now with this said, I am back! Tomorrow is a new day and a new challenge begins. So what does Fat and Fabulouse at Forty mean to me now? It means that I'm am making life changes that will help me to insure a healthy lifestyle and will get me on the road to weight loss success and maintenance. Hold on tight the ride is going to be crazy!

PS Thanks to so many that have asked me where I was and why I haven't been blogging! You are great dear friends and I love you big much!

Aw...Weigh-in # 7

Not much to report...same ol' same ol'. I had a very challenging week, trying to keep on track. Not sure what the deal was. I drank an entire 2ltr of coke in one weekend! V told a friend that I would have the Coke finished by Monday and I was completely astonished that she would say that. Well, she knows me too well! Getting back on track this week. It's amazing after eating relatively clean for the week affects your body. I ate a couple of not so healthy meals and now I am paying for it! I don't feel so well!

Thanks for checking in!